I'd like to think that in a serious and scary situation, that I'd have the courage to fight for something. But when ever I seriously imagine a situation like that, my imagined self ends up crying. I feel like the lion on The Wizard of Oz. And I usually try to chalk it up to being "non-confrontational." Nobody respects a quick temper, so that's what I hide behind. But for me, that's just an excuse. I am terrified of hurting someone's feelings or stepping on anyone's toes (literally... I don't walk through crowded rooms).
But I've also noticed that I'm a coward in almost every way. I was about to delete an email from my Inbox today from an insurance agent who'd sent me a quote. And I thought, "I don't really need this. But what if I accidentally answer his call? He's going to ask if I got his email. And I'm not gonna lie to him. So then I'll have to explain that I got it, but I deleted it. And that will be awkward." So instead of deleting it, I ignored it. So now I have this email in my Inbox that feels like a splinter in my brain. I hate having junk in my Inbox. So I think I will delete it. I just realized that it will stay in my Trash until I delete it there too. So I'm covered.
I'm such a coward.