I hate not knowing what I'm doing. I think it's more because of my arrogance and pride than anything else, but I like being the expert on stuff. I like when people can say, "That's a good question. I have no idea. But I bet Taylor knows." Usually people say this in reference to dessert questions, but you get the point. I like to know what I'm talking about. So the new job has been difficult so far in that I don’t have a clue about most stuff. And I'm really afraid of asking stupid questions.
Yesterday, in my ever-increasing desire to be in the know, I explored the office a little bit to learn at least a few things and satisfy that need to be informed. So I found the employee information file on the network drive and updated it with my information. And I did the same thing with the phone extension list. Then I went to the break room and familiarized myself with the cabinets that hold all the coffee stuff and office supplies. And I figured out how the coffee-maker works. So then today, someone asked me for my contact information so she could update the employee information file. And I didn't want to seem like a jerk, so I pretended that I hadn't updated it already and answered all her questions. Then I ran into someone in the break room and they "taught" me how to make coffee and showed me where all the stuff was. And it's not a big deal or anything. I'm glad that people are so helpful. But if they found out that I was pretending, it would be pretty awkward (think of Ben Stiller in Meet the Parents when he tried to explain to Robert De Niro about milking a cat).
So I found out that one of the surprisingly difficult things I've had to learn how to do at a new job is to act ignorant. And I'm aware that that sounds weird (as weird as it felt to type "that that" just now). But that’s exactly what I had to do today with the coffee thing and the employee file. So maybe I should stop worrying about feeling informed and start actually learning my job. There's a thought.